Sacmalayaninsan

Ankara’da dogmus olan her insanin kafasinda birazda olsa melankoli dolasir.Bunu deneyimlerime dayanarak soylemiyorum,ayrica benim deneyimlerimden akil vermeye kalkissam butun memleket bertaraf olmanin esigine suruklenir.Gercek olan tek sey ise Ankara insani o icinde aldigi ilk nefesle melankolik bir ruh haline sokuyor.
Denize kiyisi varmis ya da yokmus hic bir onemi yok aslinda.
Zubeyde Hanim Dogumevimde doganlar bilir,eger aldiniz mi o ciger yakan ilk nefesi nereye tasinirsaniz tasinin Ankara’nin o gri havasini yaninizda goturursunuz.
Verdiginiz her nefes yasadiginiz yere karisir.
Catlak bir kaldirim gorursunuz; o Ankaradir.
ya da bir simit.

Tandogan’dan dogar gunes bizim icin.
Atakule’nin sirtlarinda batar.Ve gunes battiginda Ankara gri degildir ustelik.
Gunesin rengi farkli,ve bulutlar kendilerinden bagimsizca anlasamadiklari renklerinde.Her gun bir kac dakika bile olsa gri sehir istediginiz renlere burunur.
Ne olursa olsun cigerlerinizde soludugunuz ilk nefes Ankaradir.
O yuzden ben bir gri cocugum. View Larger

Ankara’da dogmus olan her insanin kafasinda birazda olsa melankoli dolasir.Bunu deneyimlerime dayanarak soylemiyorum,ayrica benim deneyimlerimden akil vermeye kalkissam butun memleket bertaraf olmanin esigine suruklenir.Gercek olan tek sey ise Ankara insani o icinde aldigi ilk nefesle melankolik bir ruh haline sokuyor.

Denize kiyisi varmis ya da yokmus hic bir onemi yok aslinda.

Zubeyde Hanim Dogumevimde doganlar bilir,eger aldiniz mi o ciger yakan ilk nefesi nereye tasinirsaniz tasinin Ankara’nin o gri havasini yaninizda goturursunuz.

Verdiginiz her nefes yasadiginiz yere karisir.

Catlak bir kaldirim gorursunuz; o Ankaradir.

ya da bir simit.

Tandogan’dan dogar gunes bizim icin.

Atakule’nin sirtlarinda batar.Ve gunes battiginda Ankara gri degildir ustelik.

Gunesin rengi farkli,ve bulutlar kendilerinden bagimsizca anlasamadiklari renklerinde.Her gun bir kac dakika bile olsa gri sehir istediginiz renlere burunur.

Ne olursa olsun cigerlerinizde soludugunuz ilk nefes Ankaradir.

O yuzden ben bir gri cocugum.


Berkin.

70’li yillarda 20’li yaslarinda oldurulenler icin aglardi Turkiye.Yeni milenyum dedik.21.yuzyilin tam baslangici 2000’in 10’lu yillarinda henuz 20’ye girememis olan cocuklarin olumune sahit oluyoruz.
Gel coz hadi bu denklemi.
Emri veren ulkenin basi,
emri uygulayan vatandasi korumakla yukumlu polis,
parki korumak adinda cikan anayasal hak olan protestoda,
ekmek almaya cikan 14 yasindaki cocuk,
15. yasini kutlayamadan polis tarafindan olduruluyor,
katili belli,
olduren belli degil.
Berkin neden oldu ?

Simdi Turkiye’nin yarisi asla cozemeyecek bu problemi.

Koskocaman ulkenin yarisi.


banana-fishing:

His name is Berkin Elvan. Berkin Elvan was 15 years old when he got hit by a tear gas capsule on his way to buy bread. He was not a “gezi protester”, he was just a kid who left home to buy food. 269 days ago Berkin Elvan was alive and his weight was 45 kg. When his death declared this morning, he was 16 years old and only 16 kg. He is killed by police brutality, he is killed by the government. He is killed by Turkish press that takes direct orders from the prime minister. Still, the police who pulled the trigger is not known. Probably because no judge or prosecutor gives a damn about who your killer is, while they are busy saving the governments ass from corruption allegations.
Today, we are living in a damn country that you can’t be sure if you can come back to your home alive or if not, whether your murderer will be found. We are sick, tired and angry. But not dead yet.
His name is Berkin Elvan, and he will be 16 years old, forever.

banana-fishing:

His name is Berkin Elvan. Berkin Elvan was 15 years old when he got hit by a tear gas capsule on his way to buy bread. He was not a “gezi protester”, he was just a kid who left home to buy food. 269 days ago Berkin Elvan was alive and his weight was 45 kg. When his death declared this morning, he was 16 years old and only 16 kg. He is killed by police brutality, he is killed by the government. He is killed by Turkish press that takes direct orders from the prime minister. Still, the police who pulled the trigger is not known. Probably because no judge or prosecutor gives a damn about who your killer is, while they are busy saving the governments ass from corruption allegations.

Today, we are living in a damn country that you can’t be sure if you can come back to your home alive or if not, whether your murderer will be found. We are sick, tired and angry. But not dead yet.

His name is Berkin Elvan, and he will be 16 years old, forever.


on the right side of the bed
stealing the breathe that she exhale
counting the beats of her heart.





I have never fall asleep with wide open eyes. View Larger

on the right side of the bed
stealing the breathe that she exhale
counting the beats of her heart.

I have never fall asleep with wide open eyes.


Gunde 3 Ogun Meditasyon

Gozunu kapatiyorsun.

Yan odada oynasan Koreli ciftin sesleri,

IKEA'dan alinmis ucuz yatagin gicirtisi

ve buna dahil camina dokunan kar tanelerinin patirtisi icinde kendi kutsal soguk savasinda meditasyon yapmaya yeltenmissin.

Sen meditasyondan ne anlarsin.

Gozunu kapattigin anda onun yuzu ve ardindan eski burusuk yollari olan sehrin icinde yakindan damlayan yagmur damlalari,

goz kapaklarini actigin anda Koreli ciftin inlemesi,

yine kapat gozlerini ;

striptiz klupleri,yatakdaki kadin,okulda memeleri terleyen sinif arkadasi.

Ac gozlerini;

gunlerdir telefonun calmiyor.Arkadaslarin baska arkadaslariyla geziyor.

Kapa gozlerini ve derin bir nefes al;

Akademik problemlerin ve ne yapacagini bilmiyor olman.Kredi karti ekstreleri ,kirli masanda ki bir kac bozuk para.

Actin gozlerini tekrar…

Bir daha da kapatma.

Birak gozlerin dolsun belki aglarsin cunku meditasyon, dolu kafaya ancak bas agrisi veriyor.

Kodugumun C vitaminleriyle placebo etkisinin dibine vurmaya geliyorum.

Kim takar anti-depresanlari.

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